As you all know the last 8 years of my life have been fraught with infections, pain and lots of health challenges. I have and will always remain focused and thankful for the teachings that this journey has brought me however some days are tougher than others.
Today I want to focus on the growth I have experienced from the journey and ultimately the achievement I have made in putting myself and the best decisions for myself into the forefront.
In life we often feel we have something to prove. We need to do things as it is so important what other people think or because of what we “believe” other people think or need from us. However in reality the important thing is actually what we ourselves think and how we make decisions based on what is best for us individually regardless of what other people think.
The greatest blessing of being ill and having the luxury of good health taken away from me, is that it has taught me so much about gratitude for the simple things in life and for the amazing support I am blessed with in my life. While I may not have the blessing of good health and currently feel like I am under siege with pain, I am so utterly loved and held by so many special people.
This last week I travelled to Durban for the SA SUP Championships in hope of participating. I had my heart set on doing one race and taking part in a sport that has given me so much hope and has kept me moving. It was however not meant to be. However in saying that I did achieve one great victory. I simply showed up. I was there with an amazing group of people who are always there cheering me on and sharing their love and support.
I also made a grown up decision when considering my pain levels and the weather conditions to not take part. Believe me this was not an easy decision for me as I am pretty damn stubborn and in the past would’ve simply done it anyway and landed up compromising my heath further with my stubborn attitude.
Yesterday I had my latest check up and while there have been some improvements on one side there have been more complications on another side. My legs in particular are taking the most strain and therefore my SUPPING is going to be harder but I will continue to do it as at the moment it is keeping me moving and smiling.
Today I choose to celebrate my growth and understanding of how important it is to love yourself enough to not put yourself in harms way. I celebrate the support and love I have around me all the time and I celebrate that I am still able to get up and keep moving. That is a lot to celebrate.
I ask you today to look at all the blessings you have and be thankful for them as you will find that you have an abundance of them if you just stop and look. Step out of the space of what you don’t have and into the space of what you do. And then just celebrate this.